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There are times when I have felt I have given my all in different situations. Some situations for example are in the classroom trying to do the very best that I can. Another situation would be on the soccer field when I have given my all and I just wanted to be dragged off the field because I could not give any more. Another situation would be in my personal relationships with those that are around me I try to be the best possible friend that God has instilled me to be. Lately (the past year and a half or so), I have been discouraged with friendships. I have felt like I have been let down more than once in numerous occasions. I have felt that I have given my very best in each friendship that I have had and then I get slapped in the face by some circumstance or for some reason the friendship turns sour. There are times when I do not know why the friendship has turned sour. There are times when I understand the circumstance and our friendship just has to move on and then there are times which still baffle me to this day. I have been trying to wrap my head around this whole concept of friendship, but I still struggle with this from time to time. The one thing that I do know is that God knows my heart and He knows how much I care for people. Even though this is a tough time, I realize He is in greater control that I am. God has instilled me a passion for friends and I just ache for when I lose a friend and I rejoice when I gain a new friend. Even all of this said, I still struggle with friendships.